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    Habits, reaction, thinking, and so on

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    Most things are habits of Bodymind. Of course you can't change who you are. However, it's possible to forget. Not like ignorance.

    What are you thinking about when you sit on the cushion? What are you waiting to do when the sitting is over? What are your goals, and expectations? What makes "what you want to do" different from "what needs to be done?" No teacher has anything to give you, but trust the teacher and most importantly TRUST YOUR PRACTICE. Bodymind is full of habits. Clenching habit. Thinking habit. Twitching habit. All of this has nothing to do with you. There is no "you". There is only the accumulated habits of Bodymind. I want to do this. I want to do that = habit, unbalanced.

    Our ways of acting are so ingrained in our Bodymind, that we need to do some crazy practice in order to be normal.

    What am I going to have for lunch? What is going to happen at work today? What will happen when I get home? What will happen when I do this or that? Who's watching me? And the million other things we go on and on about. Creating some fictional story where we are the protaganist and everything revolves around "I". "I" want. "I" need. I, I, I. Arguing. Defending. Pushing. Bullying. Using. For what? So we can get some kind of satisfaction? But we're never satisfied. *No matter how much you eat, or what new car you buy, what drugs you use, video game you purchase, or degree you get, you will never be satisfied. Because those things are not anything. They are only what we attach to them.

    Getting a degree points to what? You? No. It points to some "body" that has acquired knowledge about something that doesn't exist. I could give a degree to a dog or a chipmunk, and it would mean the exact same thing. Building ourselves up to some imaginary ideal that only exists in our mind. Why do people let us do that? Because they are so busy building up their own ideal, that they couldn't possibly tell you "your full of shit". How can they know that, when they are busy doing the exact same thing you are.

    "It feels lonely at the top." that's the old saying, but we keep fooling ourselves thinking that it is not true. If I could just get "more" I would be OK. Then I will have it? Have what? What do you want? Whatever you want, you can't have it because it only exists in your mind. I want to be happy. I want to have security. I want to have the perfect little white picket fence with dog named Chumpy. And what happens when you get that? It doesn't really satisfy does it? You thought it did, but it doesn't. Why is that? Because you are searching for something that is imaginary, something outside of yourself. We don't realize this. We start getting philosophical, and look to something else to fill that gap. That might be Yoga, or crystals, books, and Veganism. It might be a career change, or it might be Zen practice. "Zen can fix this. Zen can give me that satisfaction that I have been looking for. I didn't get it with the house or the car, or the degree, so Zen must be able to give me that." No. It can't. It can show us the desire to have the perfect life, to be fulfilled, and replace it with nothing. Absolutely nothing. Just this. Real you. No you. Zen is good for nothing.


    Gassho _/_

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    Re: Habits, reaction, thinking, and so on

    There is something to do which gives life to you and others. A habit like this would be called good. Nishijima said 'it has become impossible for me to stop the habit of Zazen at all'. I think wisdom is learning to see what is, and keeping (practicing) the right to do's or habits and dropping the wrong to do's or habits.

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    Re: Habits, reaction, thinking, and so on

    Will, you have a real valid point. Good for nothing. Indeed. And yet good. Rich reminds us that what gives life, protects life and serves life can be called good. What is important is not to dwell anywhere, not to put a boundary to our practice. The "good for nothing" is a most powerful antidote to the eager ego ready to manipulate everything. So we sit as we are drinking tea. We sit and leave. And of course, tea drinks us, we drink ourselves, tea drinks tea, drinking tea it is the whole sky we drink too.

    As a child, one of my favorite activities was to throw stones in a still water enjoying the feel of the stone, the throw, the noise, the ripples and the whole idle scene. Sitting is a bit like that. A bit like fishing too. But fishing without catching anything over there. Throwing a stone for the sheer activity of throwing. The fact we do not pay attention to the ripples doesn't mean they don't exist. We just don't need to get caught in this :wink: .

    And yes, habits, patterns: what we call I-me-mine is made of these.


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