Well, I just received news that my Granddad did not awaken after surgery this afternoon.
I am profoundly sad. Not, the tear you hair out sad you see on tv and movies. It is a hole or void in the center of my being.
There is nothing I can do right now.
Hell, there was nothing I could have done.
I am thankful I used my vacation time to see him this past winter.
All I'm left with is a zafu to sit with it and await my mom's call to tell me of the memorial arrangements.