Are there parts of yourself that you absolutely hate?

I throw tantrums. I am preemptively negative, or even preemptively attacking. I distrust myself and therefore am prone to isolation.

I sit, and I experience this sort of tranquility...but I cannot translate it into my life.

I whine. I bitch and moan. I throw tantrums at work and shock people.

I don't like it. I don't know how to fix it.