The Continuing Tales of Gendo JinKan

[Doshin]

Thank you for your kindness

Doshin
Stlah

[Kotei]

Gassho,
Kotei sat/lah today.

[Tai Shi]

I believe I heard a talk by Myoshen a teacher at a Zen Center in Pacific Northwest, a great inspiration, and JinKen you are an inspiration as I cope with the beginning of still greater practice with her urging, and your urging. By greater practice, I mean I pull back in so many ways making room for great young people like you. It is time for Tai Shi to let others carry peace to others.
Gassho
sat/lah

[KellyLM]

Yesterday in America it was Veterans Day and I went out and met up with a few homeless vets I know and bought them food. One of them was Ben a marine and combat veteran who I met years ago at the veterans hospital. He seemed alive, vibrant and happy when we chatted yesterday. He was going to try and enroll in a drug rehabilitation program and said he was looking for work.
This morning I got a call from a hospital that there was a man found unconscious last night who was now in intensive care who was dying and all they found on this man was a card with me number. So I left in the middle of this morning’s guest speakers talk and went to the hospital. It was Ben intubated and unconscious. He had at least three heart attacks since being admitted and wasn’t expected to make it through the day. I told the nurse to contact the VA to get his next of kin information and stayed with him. He passed while his mother was driving to the hospital and I sat with her and her in the waiting room because she couldn’t bear to see her dead child. I held her hand and told her that I had lost a daughter and then listened to her. The doctor came by and told her that her son had died of a methanphetamine overdose. They found him with the needle in his arm with pockets out turned because he was apparently robbed while he was unconscious. She broke down and said why did he have to do this what a waste. He wasted his life and now he is dead. She kept repeating it like a mantra. With her hands still in mine I told that I couldn’t tell her why he did what he did and like all of us he wasn’t perfect but he did not waste his life. I told her about the many kind acts I had seen him do for homeless people and the bravery he showed in helping others and trying to help himself. I told her of the many times he tried to get treatment. I shared about him wanting to come to our mediation group at the library. I told her that he wasn’t a failure and didn’t waste his life because no matter how many times he failed be it in recovery or getting a job. He kept trying and never gave up. So I write this hoping Ben will be an inspiration to you in your practice. Whether you think you broke precepts or struggle with sitting you haven’t failed. You only fail if you give up.
Gassho,
JinKan
Sat

Wow Jinkan, I am sorry for the loss of your friend and for his mother's loss as well. Much metta to you all. You are a beautiful soul and also, it seems, was Ben.

Gassho,
SatLah
Kelly

[Myosho]

I am grateful for your teachings, Jinkan.



Myosho
Sat Lah

[nalber3]

stlah

Bernal

[Jinkan]

This week was a week of pain as finish this round of chemotherapy. Massively swollen from inflammation and retention from the multiple IV bags. Walking a chore as bones and muscles aches hinder movement. It is important in these times that St. John referred to as a dark night of the soul to cultivate acceptance, gratitude and recognize hope. Without them we will never make it through that dark night and see the dawn. If we don’t radically accept and let go the pain, anxiety, depression or whatever ills that are causing our distress we can never get better. We will get caught up in why’s. Why is this happening? Why am I in pain? Why can’t I be happy? With out acceptance even after the pain, depression and whatever else has left any relief you feel will be tempered by, why did I have to go through that. By not accepting and letting go of the situation you still cling to experience. By cultivating gratitude you can better accept pain, anxiety, depression or other ills. When I look at pain. I look at it with the eyes of gratitude because it reminds me that I’m alive and while I’m alive I can still practice and there is hope. Being grateful for these negative moments can also make it easier to gain insight from them. If we just label them as bad or negative states and we close ourselves off from the many teaching they can offer. Gratitude can slowly erase the dualistic mind of good and bad, and awaken insight. Lastly we need to recognize hope. Hope is the light on the horizon signaling the dawn. Hope can be the life preserver you cling to when all seems lost. Life preserver is very apropos for hope because many people who committed or tried to commit suicide did so because they lost hope. They didn’t have the hope that things would get better so they were left in a perpetual dark night. So recognize hope and cultivate it because when you bring the light of hope in those dark times you not only help yourself. You can be a beacon to others who are suffering as you are or were. You can become the lighthouse in the storm that gives them hope they will make it to shore.
Gassho,
JinKan
Sat

[Doshin]

Hope is a powerful word for me

Doshin
Stlah

[Nengei]

Thank you for your teaching, JinKan. Today, and every day, we sit with hope and equanimity.

Gassho,
Nengei
Sat today. LAH.

[Onki]

JinKan,

What a different perspective. Pain, especially physical pain (fibromyalgia), for me at times leaves me feeling hopeless. I don’t see any hope. I will not accept that I have pain in my life. I think about how my life was when I didn’t have any pain. I miss those days.

Why am I in pain? What can I do to stop the pain? Having pain is negative. There is nothing good about being in pain.

This teaching gives me hope. It gives me a different way to look at pain. In this moment of my life I am experiencing pain. This is my reality. I need to accept this. However, despite being in chronic pain, there are still things that I can do to help others. I am not hopeless.

I am going to work on not seeing pain in an absolutely negative way. There is much to learn from pain. And while I experience chronic pain in my life, I can share my experiences with others.

Thank you for your Teachings,

Gasshō,

On

Sat today/LAH

[Onkai]

JinKan, what a deep but difficult teaching. Gratitude and hope to bring us through any kind of pain, and the possibility of helping others even in the most pain.

Gassho, Onkai
Sat lah

[Onkai]

Thank you for sharing, Onki.

Gassho, Onkai
Sat lah

[Tai Shi]

I have all that you speak of and I have bipolar disorder and I have anxiety issues and I have Ankylosing Spondylitis which I take subQ injections for and 16 different pills each day but I don’t have a threat of death hanging over me like you do I have anxiety problems not so much anymore. I feel for you and have had enough to understand you and I will sit for you this afternoon.
sat/lah
Gossho
Deep bows.


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[Tai Shi]

I said I would sit for you and I did so. I don’t understand why your illnesses because I have no idea what you’re going through. I know you’re in constant pain and I understand that. May your day be filled with joy replacing your pain.
Gassho
deep bows
Tai Shi.


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[Shinshi]

Thank you JinKan for your wonderful teaching and for sharing your Hope.

Gassho, Shinshi

SaT-LaH

[Jinkan]

With Thanksgiving on Thursday I spent most of the earlier portions of this week practicing an oft overlooked and forgotten part of our practice. I cultivated trying to recognize silver linings in all situations. We often forget to train ourselves to see the positive in lifes many situations especially when we are confronted by something that seems wholly negative. This training while often forgotten or ignored is thoroughly needed because success in this training means gratitude and thankfulness will emerge from even the darkest moments and negative circumstances. It is the point of the Buddhist fable about a man walking in the hills enjoying nature when he is confronted by a mountain lion who chases him to the edge of a cliff. With no other option available, the man jumps over and is able to grab onto a vine. He dangles from the bottom but when he looks down he sees a bear looking up at him. The vine continues to hold him, offering some protection from both the mountain lion above and the bear below, when two mice appear from a burrow on the cliffside. They begin to eat away at the vine. While dangling precariously, the man sees a strawberry growing. He picks it, eats it, and smiles because it is so delicious. The fable points the truth of the above training and shows the obvious: Every circumstance, no matter how complex, challenging, and frustrating, contains a positive seed that should be nurtured. So I encourage you all to cultivate a mind that recognizes the silver linings in life. To cultivate a mind of thankfulness and gratitude. Spend this week leading up to Rohatsu cultivating the thankful mind by looking deeply at your lives learning to recognize the many things you should be thankful for and also looking deeply to find those elusive but ever present silver linings.

The weeks earlier practice inspired me for this years Thanksgiving to help create and host a Treeleaf Special Event. It was “A Special Ceremony and Sitting of Gratitude and Thanks”. I was honored that so many joined me for a simple ceremony of thankfulness and a sitting cultivating gratitude and thankfulness. I know that we all have things we are thankful for. For some it is family, life and love. While for others it might be just getting through a day without alcohol. For me it is being alive and being able to do this ceremony and practice. So I welcomed all to join me in recognizing the many things we have to be thankful for and to give thanks with a special ceremony and sitting on this day that Americans have named Thanksgiving.

https://www.youtube.com/live/KxT6CRg...5UarYNQkEAljuQ

Side Note: I’m in tons of pain. I went to the library to run me meditation group and as I was laying extra zafu and zabutons down I both felt and heard a loud pop followed a bunch of crunching. Those sounds and sensations were the heralded of such a high level of pain that I almost started actively crying and weeping out loud as I couldn’t keep tears from streaming down me face. So I’m heading to the ER. I will not be posting me regular weekly update but I may post an update following this ER visit.
Gassho
JinKan
Sat

[Tai Shi]

With Thanksgiving on Thursday I spent most of the earlier portions of this week practicing an oft overlooked and forgotten part of our practice. I cultivated trying to recognize silver linings in all situations. We often forget to train ourselves to see the positive in lifes many situations especially when we are confronted by something that seems wholly negative. This training while often forgotten or ignored is thoroughly needed because success in this training means gratitude and thankfulness will emerge from even the darkest moments and negative circumstances. It is the point of the Buddhist fable about a man walking in the hills enjoying nature when he is confronted by a mountain lion who chases him to the edge of a cliff. With no other option available, the man jumps over and is able to grab onto a vine. He dangles from the bottom but when he looks down he sees a bear looking up at him. The vine continues to hold him, offering some protection from both the mountain lion above and the bear below, when two mice appear from a burrow on the cliffside. They begin to eat away at the vine. While dangling precariously, the man sees a strawberry growing. He picks it, eats it, and smiles because it is so delicious. The fable points the truth of the above training and shows the obvious: Every circumstance, no matter how complex, challenging, and frustrating, contains a positive seed that should be nurtured. So I encourage you all to cultivate a mind that recognizes the silver linings in life. To cultivate a mind of thankfulness and gratitude. Spend this week leading up to Rohatsu cultivating the thankful mind by looking deeply at your lives learning to recognize the many things you should be thankful for and also looking deeply to find those elusive but ever present silver linings.

The weeks earlier practice inspired me for this years Thanksgiving to help create and host a Treeleaf Special Event. It was “A Special Ceremony and Sitting of Gratitude and Thanks”. I was honored that so many joined me for a simple ceremony of thankfulness and a sitting cultivating gratitude and thankfulness. I know that we all have things we are thankful for. For some it is family, life and love. While for others it might be just getting through a day without alcohol. For me it is being alive and being able to do this ceremony and practice. So I welcomed all to join me in recognizing the many things we have to be thankful for and to give thanks with a special ceremony and sitting on this day that Americans have named Thanksgiving.

https://www.youtube.com/live/KxT6CRg...5UarYNQkEAljuQ

Side Note: I’m in tons of pain. I went to the library to run me meditation group and as I was laying extra zafu and zabutons down I both felt and heard a loud pop followed a bunch of crunching. Those sounds and sensations were the heralded of such a high level of pain that I almost started actively crying and weeping out loud as I couldn’t keep tears from streaming down me face. So I’m heading to the ER. I will not be posting me regular weekly update but I may post an update following this ER visit.
Gassho
JinKan
Sat

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My Thanksgiving Day was to be with my wife of 41 years. Though she cooked an 11 pound turkey, most of the meat was saved for other meals. We will have seven meals besides the Thanksgiving dinner and we were frugal about side dishes limiting ourselves to three without potatoes. I am very happy with this meal because it was delicious and does in the spirit of frugality.
Gassho
Thank you you
Sat/lah

[Tai Shi]

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Thank goodness I am listening to people like you Jenkan you have an awesome point of view. You have been sick for a very long time and very sick. Yes you are teaching us how we should live in Dahana or gratitude which is serious giving and service. Thank goodness for your service and your kindness.
Gassho
Sat/lah


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[Onkai]

Thank you, JinKan, for your teaching. I hope something can be done about your pain and that this event doesn't curtail your mobility in the future. Much metta. I look forward to your posts.

Gassho, Onkai
Sat lah

[Jundo]

[Shinshi]

Thank you for the teaching as you waited to go to ER. Really hope it wasn't too serious. Much Metta.

Gassho, Shinshi

SaT-LaH

[Doshin]

Doshin
Stlah