I thank the healthcare professionals. Very calm and of high quality. Even amid the corona storm, they are doing their utmost.
I don't have money, so they understand the situation, and my uncle and aunt (mother's brother and wife) support me. My uncle is 76 years old, but he is still working due to the recent big earthquake on repair in Sendai (very far from here). My mother is 78 years old and also works. My younger brother's wife is Thai and is about 60 years old. She works hard in Japan and sends money home to her Thai family. And she respects me because she is Thai. Buddhist monks are respected in Thailand
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Even so, even if I get ill, I have been doing my best for my family and for peace. I think many people think I'm overdoing it, but that's the opinion of others. If I don't do it, so who will do it? So the way I keep my balance is always strict.
That war has caused this situation and economic growth has corrupted selfish humans. Therefore, I would like to work hard every day to be more calm and happy.
I heard from the doctor that my mother had regained her consciousness ... I heard that my aunt is preparing to stop her work for a while and help my mother. Of course I too will do what I can, but at the end of March, I have to make greeting at the Hossen Shiki ceremony, and I have devoted myself to Tenryu-ji Temple, and then I have a plan to go to Nagasaki. It's a crucial moment in life.
Keep calm, smile, breathe well, and consult about money with everyone.
And above all, I have to think about the future of myself and my son, as well as world peace.
I did zazen today as well. Please do zazen as well.
The difficulties that are close to us personally now in life and the difficulties in Europe are from the same cause. Stay balanced, respect others firmly. And sometimes I do what I do, even if I'm all about myself.
I realized now that this was what Dogen has taught me.
Let's all sit!