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    Dull, sleepy zazen

    I'd like to share my zazen experience that I thought may be helpful for some, so I apologise it will be longer than 3 sentences.
    For a while I've been struggling with dull sleepy zazens. There's so much info already on the net how to deal with it but I've asked Jundo for help.
    Accept the dullness when dullness comes, but hold a profound, abiding
    faith and trust deep in the bones, unvoiced, that sitting itself is a
    sacred doing, all the Buddhas and Ancestors sitting now in the place
    where one is sitting, this Zafu on Vulture Peak, all the universe in the
    10 direction held within this spot, shining like a jewel.

    Then, just be dull.
    My initial thought was "Say what? Just be dull? But everywhere else it says something else! Nahh". But I've listened. And it turned out that, what I thought I was accepting in zazen was simple observation and noting, the type of noting so often thaught in various mindfulness practices. That however, has duality of observer and observed. So when the dullness appeared I would note its presence, wrongly believing I was accepting it, but on a very subtle level there was still resistance to it and the need to fight it off, to do something with it. Then I finally gave up : let it be, if I fall asleep on the cushion let it be, if it's a bad zazen, let it be. I've merged with the heaviness of dullness and sleepiness letting the eyelids drop. And then something strange happened : instead of falling asleep my breath naturally became very short and rhythmic. After some time it calmed down into stillness and I found myself with eyes open in blissfully focused and energised clarity.
    This clarity is not important in itself, just another state of mind, just like the dullness was. Who knows, maybe next time I'll fall asleep on my zafu. What I found important though, is to truly accept whatever state I'm finding myself in, merging with whatever condition presents itself, dropping all the resistance and attachment freely being in the flow of impermanence. A glimpse of Shikantaza. So much more sitting to sit.
    Now I understand why Shikantaza is not a meditation that dualisticly uses various techniques and conscious manipulation of body energy (sorry Jundo, I'm a slow learner, you keep talking about it all the time).

    Deep bows.
    Gassho
    Sat

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    Also, if it’s a pattern lately, you might just be tired and you need to sit at a different time. It’s cool to accept and observe, but it’s also wise to understand that sometimes the body tells you it needs something you’re not giving it.

    SatToday
    Bion
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    When you put Buddha’s activity into practice, only then are you a buddha. When you act like a fool, then you’re a fool. - Sawaki Roshi

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    Don't forget that we're in a global pandemic, so, some things may not function as they normally do.

    Gassho,

    Ryūmon

    sat
    流文

    I know nothing.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Bion View Post
    Also, if it’s a pattern lately, you might just be tired and you need to sit at a different time. It’s cool to accept and observe, but it’s also wise to understand that sometimes the body tells you it needs something you’re not giving it.

    SatToday
    Bodhidharma ripped his eyelids off
    If we try to create perfect conditions and look for perfect timing to sit Zazen we may not end up sitting much. I think it might be worth it to use some effort and practice in challenging conditions. As lay practitioners we will hardly ever experience "hard core" Zazen and practice as in some monasteries.

    Gassho
    Sat

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    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    Bodhidharma ripped his eyelids off
    If we try to create perfect conditions and look for perfect timing to sit Zazen we may not end up sitting much. I think it might be worth it to use some effort and practice in challenging conditions. As lay practitioners we will hardly ever experience "hard core" Zazen and practice as in some monasteries.

    Gassho
    Sat
    From the Soto-shu official website: “Avoid sitting when you haven't had sufficient sleep or when you are physically exhausted. Before sitting, eat moderately and avoid alcohol. Wash your face and feet so that you feel refreshed.”

    https://www.sotozen.com/eng/practice...wto/index.html

    SatToday
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    When you put Buddha’s activity into practice, only then are you a buddha. When you act like a fool, then you’re a fool. - Sawaki Roshi

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    I found that early in my practice my body seemed to equate stillness and 'soft eyes' with sleep and so it was a struggle to stay awake. After practicing a while, it ceased to be an issue, and I can now sit even when I'm tired and the urge toward sleep is never an issue. My body just needed to learn that zazen is not a sleep thing...
    Gassho, Shōkon
    昭魂 - Bright Spirit
    Sat Today

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    Inshin, I know it as well, and that are things that also pass in my experience. So just keep sitting

    Gassho

    Horin

    Stlah

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    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    Bodhidharma ripped his eyelids off
    If we try to create perfect conditions and look for perfect timing to sit Zazen we may not end up sitting much. I think it might be worth it to use some effort and practice in challenging conditions.
    Exactly this! If I listened to my lazy mind/body every time it tried to make an excuse to not sit, I would have missed out on some very beneficial Zazen. Thank you for sharing, I think we all struggle with it from time to time.

    Gassho,

    Bokuchō
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    Bad zazen? "There is no bad zazen." Jundo.

    Gassho
    STlah
    Shoki

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    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    Bodhidharma ripped his eyelids off
    If we try to create perfect conditions and look for perfect timing to sit Zazen we may not end up sitting much. I think it might be worth it to use some effort and practice in challenging conditions. As lay practitioners we will hardly ever experience "hard core" Zazen and practice as in some monasteries.

    Gassho
    Sat
    Right! I make it a priority to sit every day at my designated time regardless of the conditions because I know if I wait for the ideal conditions I may not sit at all.


    Tairin
    Sat today and lah
    泰林 - Tai Rin - Peaceful Woods

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    I've struggled with sleepy/murky zazen off an on quite a bit this past year. I used to fight it more and try to "correct" my practice to align with my ideals. However, thanks to Jundo's wonderful perspectives on Shikantaza, I've slowly become more accepting of it as just another type of "weather" in the clear blue sky of zazen.

    Consider a leaf flowing down a stream. Trying to change our zazen to be how we "think" it should be is like the leaf trying to float upstream. Quite often, the leaf will become stuck on a rock or a branch, and it may remain stuck there for some time. But eventually it will break free and continue to flow with the stream. Trust in the current of practice. Sometimes we flow easily and gently, other times we bump into all sorts of things along the way. It's all part of the journey.

    Gassho,
    Seikan

    -stlah-

    (Apologies for running long...)


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    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    I'd like to share my zazen experience that I thought may be helpful for some, so I apologise it will be longer than 3 sentences.
    For a while I've been struggling with dull sleepy zazens. There's so much info already on the net how to deal with it but I've asked Jundo for help.

    My initial thought was "Say what? Just be dull? But everywhere else it says something else! Nahh". But I've listened. And it turned out that, what I thought I was accepting in zazen was simple observation and noting, the type of noting so often thaught in various mindfulness practices. That however, has duality of observer and observed. So when the dullness appeared I would note its presence, wrongly believing I was accepting it, but on a very subtle level there was still resistance to it and the need to fight it off, to do something with it. Then I finally gave up : let it be, if I fall asleep on the cushion let it be, if it's a bad zazen, let it be. I've merged with the heaviness of dullness and sleepiness letting the eyelids drop. And then something strange happened : instead of falling asleep my breath naturally became very short and rhythmic. After some time it calmed down into stillness and I found myself with eyes open in blissfully focused and energised clarity.
    This clarity is not important in itself, just another state of mind, just like the dullness was. Who knows, maybe next time I'll fall asleep on my zafu. What I found important though, is to truly accept whatever state I'm finding myself in, merging with whatever condition presents itself, dropping all the resistance and attachment freely being in the flow of impermanence. A glimpse of Shikantaza. So much more sitting to sit.
    Now I understand why Shikantaza is not a meditation that dualisticly uses various techniques and conscious manipulation of body energy (sorry Jundo, I'm a slow learner, you keep talking about it all the time).

    Deep bows.
    Gassho
    Sat
    What a beautiful description! Thank you. I learned a lot from reading - and then re-reading - your post.

    Gassho, Jim
    ST/LaH

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    Quote Originally Posted by Bion View Post
    From the Soto-shu official website: “Avoid sitting when you haven't had sufficient sleep or when you are physically exhausted. Before sitting, eat moderately and avoid alcohol. Wash your face and feet so that you feel refreshed.”

    https://www.sotozen.com/eng/practice...wto/index.html

    SatToday
    Haha this is one of the things that makes me realize I would never make it in a brick-and-mortar monastery for more than a week of Sesshin. After many years of fine-tuning this skin bag for peak efficiency, I know it would never adjust to the 7 hours a night of sleep a night alotted. I could do it by force when younger.

    Thank you Inshin for this teaching

    Gassho,
    Jakuden
    SatToday

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    Quote Originally Posted by Jakuden View Post
    Haha this is one of the things that makes me realize I would never make it in a brick-and-mortar monastery for more than a week of Sesshin. After many years of fine-tuning this skin bag for peak efficiency, I know it would never adjust to the 7 hours a night of sleep a night alotted. I could do it by force when younger.

    Thank you Inshin for this teaching

    Gassho,
    Jakuden
    SatToday
    I don’t get it.. so you sleep fewer hours or more?

    SatToday
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    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    Bodhidharma ripped his eyelids off
    Allegedly...

    Quote Originally Posted by Inshin View Post
    If we try to create perfect conditions and look for perfect timing to sit Zazen we may not end up sitting much. I think it might be worth it to use some effort and practice in challenging conditions.
    Yes, once we sit down, I believe we should sit steadfastly with current conditions. When sleepiness arises, sit with sleepiness. When agitation arises, sit with agitation.

    But the important thing is simply to sit (ideally at least daily). So I think it is pragmatic advice to say that if one seems consistently sleepy at a particular time of day, try sitting at a different time of day. As householders, life and Mara will throw plenty of difficulties at us that will interfere with sitting, there is no need to create a new one!

    But that is just my opinion.

    Gassho,
    Sekishi
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    Quote Originally Posted by Bion View Post
    I don’t get it.. so you sleep fewer hours or more?

    SatToday
    I need 8 minimum, optimally 9. Sorry the idea of less didn’t even occur to me

    Gassho
    Jakuden
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sekishi View Post
    As householders, life and Mara will throw plenty of difficulties at us that will interfere with sitting, there is no need to create a new one!

    Tairin
    Sat today and lah
    泰林 - Tai Rin - Peaceful Woods

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    Quote Originally Posted by Jakuden View Post
    I need 8 minimum, optimally 9. Sorry the idea of less didn’t even occur to me

    Gassho
    Jakuden
    SatToday


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    Ah, yes! The more, the better! I am with you! I do usually function on somewhere around 7, maybe a bit less.

    SatToday
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    When you put Buddha’s activity into practice, only then are you a buddha. When you act like a fool, then you’re a fool. - Sawaki Roshi

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    As in all things, I say "there is NO BAD ZAZEN!" ... even the bad Zazen!

    Sleepy falling over Zazen is perfectly sleepy falling over Zazen! Nothing is lacking as sleepy falling over Zazen!

    NONETHELESS ... we try not to be sleep or fall over as best we can! (A Koan. Zen folks always looks at these things two ways at once as one).

    So, like folks have recommended, try to get sufficient sleep for Zazen (and for all of life), sit at a time of day when one is not so exhausted, drink some tea or other caffeinated beverage of choice (not Mountain Dew or those "Bulldog" things ... all things in moderation, even caffeine! ). However, Zen monks have had an intimate relationship with tea for 1500 years and more.

    When sitting and a bit tired, try some deep breaths, or slightly elongating/stretching the neck and back. Some Zen monks put a rock on their head not to sleep, or a sharp needle in their thigh. I do not recommend that.

    Some monks try to sit all night in Zazen, especially during intense retreats. Korean Rinzai monks, pushing for a breakthrough, often try to go a full 7 days with ZERO sleep ... with hallucinations that start about the third day. Also not recommended. (If they went a few more days, brain damage and death would kick in, but apparently 7 days is okay apart from the sometimes mental breakdowns which result). Some monks, trying to sit through the night, also tied ropes to themself and to a hook hanging from the ceiling so that they would not fall over, with a stick under the chin. Kinda cheating if you ask me! :-) The stick is called a Zenpan ...



    About the Zenpan ...

    https://books.google.co.jp/books?id=...0zazen&f=false

    Dogen's teacher in China used to hit people dozing during a Zazen retreat with a slipper. I have heard that, in monasteries, sleep deprivation is used just like it is used in marine boot camp or prisoner interrogations ... to break down resistance. I don't recommend that to you either.

    I do not believe in sleep deprivation. Get a good night's sleep, not only for Zazen, but for health in general.

    (Sorry to run long, and put everyone to sleep)

    Gassho, J

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    It is exactly resistance and acceptance that I found really interesting. We're talking here about sleep, but it can be anything. It can be resistance to some unpleasant sound when we're sitting Zazen. We have a threshold in our minds of what we can endure and that is a limitation set by our craving for comfort. We are always trying to make the conditions of our lives as convenient and comfortable as possible. But most of the time it is not possible and we're facing dukkha. I think that without going to extremes that Jundo described, all of us in our daily seated and unseated practice can in a safe way push through resistance and experience what acceptance means. A silly example : I'm really enjoying "my moment" reading a book, suddenly my son is asking me for a snack disturbing me. His father could make it too, but he's asking me, and I notice resistance and clinging to my "me time". If I just agree to the situation, I will go make the snack hastily, slightly annoyed wishing to come back to my pleasant time. But if let go of the resistance and truly accept the situation I'll will carry the enjoyment of "me time" to the next activity, I'll make the snack lovingly and I'll find joy in making it.
    I hope it makes sense.

    Sorry again for going over 3 sentences.
    Gassho
    Sat

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    Quote Originally Posted by Jakuden View Post
    I need 8 minimum, optimally 9. Sorry the idea of less didn’t even occur to me
    I realized when I was younger that I seemed to need more sleep that most people in order to function normally so the "8 hours" that's recommended is closer to 9 hours for me. 7 hours does not leave me refreshed at all, I feel sluggish and cranky all day. Less than that and it just gets worse. I felt vindicated when I learned more about what science has to say about sleep: We all need different amounts and while 8 is the average, there are definitely people who can do with less and people who need more, and that's just part of life.

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    Initially some years back when pain was like an ice pick into the brain, I wore a collar, and I sat lazily wishing I were some place else. I did not, or did drop into, in out of sitting, always siting somrewhere else. This I gave aways specifically artificiy, in part something else. There is always wish fulfillment. I fulfill daily now living into no adjustment. There is no pain at this moment. I just sit.
    Gassho
    sat/lah
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    Quote Originally Posted by Jundo View Post
    all things in moderation, even caffeine!
    You actually used the words "caffeine" and "moderation" in the same sentence? (Oh I just did, too - d'oh!)
    I am confused now...
    But kidding aside, I once had a phase during which my Zazen practice was more like a "timed day dreaming" - it took me a few weeks even realizing this! The only way out there was making a short conscious resolution right before sitting, that I am about to let go of all thoughts now - it worked.

    Gassho,

    Daitetsu

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    no thing needs to be added

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    Quote Originally Posted by Bion View Post
    From the Soto-shu official website: “Avoid sitting when you haven't had sufficient sleep or when you are physically exhausted. Before sitting, eat moderately and avoid alcohol. Wash your face and feet so that you feel refreshed.”

    https://www.sotozen.com/eng/practice...wto/index.html

    SatToday
    The Soto-shu clearly don't have small children! Having small kids myself I have to sit when I can so sit with whatever is going on with me at the time, at first I found this frustrating as I wanted to be in optimal condition for zazen. But as I went on I realised zazen is precisely sitting with what is and sometimes what is, is tiredness, sometimes it's over stimulation. Either way I think sitting with however I am feeling at that time helps me carry my practice off the cushion more effectively.

    Gassho,

    Heiso.

    StLah

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    It’s one thing to sit with whatever spontaneously arises and a totally different thing to consistently make choices that make things difficult for ourselves. If there’s a pattern of an undesirable or harmful result, the wise thing is to look for the causes and maybe find solutions. 10 minutes of awake and alert zazen on a park bench during a break at work might actually be a better choice in certain situations than 30 minutes of head-bopping and dozing off on the zafu at 5 am or 11 at night. Balance is the key.


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    Thank you Inshin.

    Gassho,
    Kenkū.

    sat today.

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    I have also thought about this. If (and I'm not at all sure if this is the case), Soto Zen falls into the non-dual Buddhist tradition, then Shikantaza would equate to the practice of 'Just Sitting'. We would be sitting in, what I would term, unconditioned awareness. In this state there is no right or wrong way to approach zazen, whatever arises, arises and we allow that. So if on some occasions the mind is sleepy, the mind is sleepy. As you say, let it, whatever 'it' is, be the way it is.
    Respect to all.
    Gassho
    Sat

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    I no longer sleep during zazen nor Shikantaza but I fully relax into emptiness but I have been meditating 10 years and this October practicing with Treeleaf Zendo 7 years. With experience comes more acceptance. Be kind, and I have allowed myself to adjust to myself in so many ways.
    Gassho
    sat / lah
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    That’s enough out of me for one day. lol. Thank you Jundo for much.
    Gassho
    sat/ lah
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    Congrats, every milestone is important, well done.
    Gassho
    David
    Sat

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    I came looking for a thread like this because I've had exactly this problem at various times, but especially today. Now I see that it is no problem at all.

    Gassho,
    SatLah
    Kelly

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    Thank you for looking for this thread and commenting, KellyLM, and thank you Inshin for sharing your experience. Also very useful for me. This 'accepting' and 'letting go' is such a subtle yet powerful practice - so easy yet so difficult.

    Michael
    satlah

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    I suggest that we begin two or three more groups during each day. It it's I who asked, and is this impolite to ask to Host, and perhaps out of 3000 members only 5 or 2 o 3 people show up for groups. We offer three groups and this simple group could be offered other times so others could participate in simple Shikantaza. and we might state where we have lent a hand. I offer my services as I have volunteered to intrude on those who already Host.
    Gassho.
    sat/ah
    Tai Shi
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    Quote Originally Posted by Tai Shi View Post
    I suggest that we begin two or three more groups during each day. It it's I who asked, and is this impolite to ask to Host, and perhaps out of 3000 members only 5 or 2 o 3 people show up for groups. We offer three groups and this simple group could be offered other times so others could participate in simple Shikantaza. and we might state where we have lent a hand. I offer my services as I have volunteered to intrude on those who already Host.
    Gassho.
    sat/ah
    Tai Shi
    You’d make a wonderful host, Tai Shi. Sadly, for reasons we discussed earlier, I won’t be around to join you. Thank you for your extremely kind words at today’s afternoon sit, and also our great friend, Zenkon.

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    The subject of sleepy Zazen has been on my mind regularly lately - I know when I'm starting to fall asleep, because my eyes start to close and my subconscious cuts loose with running nonsensical thoughts (ever see a cockatoo that has learned speech but not meaning go on a wild rant? LOL that's what my mind is like in that state. No more conscious thought). I then try to get myself out of that state (while seeing it as no bad thing that I got there in the first place).

    Sometimes I seem to drop right through sleep and come out the other side into something profound.

    Gassho
    SatLah
    Kelly

  36. #36
    Quote Originally Posted by KellyLM View Post
    The subject of sleepy Zazen has been on my mind regularly lately - I know when I'm starting to fall asleep, because my eyes start to close and my subconscious cuts loose with running nonsensical thoughts (ever see a cockatoo that has learned speech but not meaning go on a wild rant? LOL that's what my mind is like in that state. No more conscious thought). I then try to get myself out of that state (while seeing it as no bad thing that I got there in the first place).

    Sometimes I seem to drop right through sleep and come out the other side into something profound.

    Gassho
    SatLah
    Kelly
    That sounds like hypnagogic hallucinations. I get them often when I take naps in the afternoon, just before I fall asleep. They’re lots of fun.

    Gassho,
    Ryūmon (Kirk)
    Sat
    流文

    I know nothing.

  37. #37
    Quote Originally Posted by Ryumon View Post
    That sounds like hypnagogic hallucinations. I get them often when I take naps in the afternoon, just before I fall asleep. They’re lots of fun.

    Gassho,
    Ryūmon (Kirk)
    Sat
    I believe that whole Mahayana Sutras were written in such states.

    During a week long Sesshin at Sojiji, I once had a little cute Buddha jump out of the wall, start talking to me, pinched me, danced around and jumped back in the wall. It seemed to go on for a few minutes. Nice little fella.

    Gassho, J

    stlah
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  38. #38
    Quote Originally Posted by Ryumon View Post
    That sounds like hypnagogic hallucinations. I get them often when I take naps in the afternoon, just before I fall asleep. They’re lots of fun.

    Gassho,
    Ryūmon (Kirk)
    Sat
    It doesn't feel like hypnagogic hallucinations, which in my experience come along with paralysis and are terrifying. It's just like my normal thoughts, except they are random and disjointed, not following any "train of thought" just random images and words.

    Gassho,
    SatLah
    Kelly

  39. #39
    Quote Originally Posted by KellyLM View Post
    It doesn't feel like hypnagogic hallucinations, which in my experience come along with paralysis and are terrifying. It's just like my normal thoughts, except they are random and disjointed, not following any "train of thought" just random images and words.
    "While some types of hallucinations are a cause for concern, many people experience harmless hallucinations as they are falling asleep. They are called hypnagogic hallucinations, and they are fairly common. You may hear or see things that seem real while you are in the state between waking and sleeping. Other senses, such as smell and touch, may also be involved.*"

    And...

    "Sometimes, hypnagogic hallucinations happen along with a state of sleep paralysis. In sleep paralysis, the muscles in your body will be immobile, and you won’t be able to move. The combination of immobility and hallucinations can be frightening. It can last for up to several minutes before your muscles return to normal."

    https://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorder...hallucinations

    There are similar, but happen at different times.

    Gassho,

    Ryūmon (Kirk)

    sat
    流文

    I know nothing.

  40. #40
    It is a good time to post a reminder about Makyo ... little unusual experiences and hallucinations during Zazen, often caused by the mild "sensory deprivation" effect on the senses, the percolating up of old memories in the quiet of sitting, the effect of the quiet, being on the border of sleep and wakefulness (as in this case). The rule of thumb is that, if mild and only once in a long while, enjoy the show and move on. If too severe, break off Zazen for that sitting. If persistant, there may be other issues at work that need further examination.

    In Zen Practice, we have to be careful of certain games the mind will play during Zazen once in awhile ... including unusual visual and auditory sensations, brief periods of paranoia or panic, memories arising from deep down in our subconscious. Once, during a Sesshin, I became irate inside because I felt the monk at Sojiji sitting next to me was "encroaching on my space". I once had a little Buddha pop out of the wall and chat with me for several minutes (I pinched myself ... he stayed!), and felt like I was floating in the air. It is common during Sesshin, because of the strains involved, the "sensory deprivation", to experience such things as emotional swings, hearing becoming so sharp you can be disturbed by an ant walking across the room, strange bodily sensations such as feelings of floating or being giant sized, and paranoia.
    ~~~~

    Short Version:

    https://www.treeleaf.org/forums/show...l=1#post228822

    Long Version:

    https://www.treeleaf.org/forums/show...l=1#post228823

    Gassho, J

    stlah
    ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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    Quote Originally Posted by Ryumon View Post
    "While some types of hallucinations are a cause for concern, many people experience harmless hallucinations as they are falling asleep. They are called hypnagogic hallucinations, and they are fairly common. You may hear or see things that seem real while you are in the state between waking and sleeping. Other senses, such as smell and touch, may also be involved.*"

    And...

    "Sometimes, hypnagogic hallucinations happen along with a state of sleep paralysis. In sleep paralysis, the muscles in your body will be immobile, and you won’t be able to move. The combination of immobility and hallucinations can be frightening. It can last for up to several minutes before your muscles return to normal."

    https://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorder...hallucinations

    There are similar, but happen at different times.

    Gassho,

    Ryūmon (Kirk)

    sat
    Interesting! It's still not that though. It's my usual thoughts, just faster and random. Definitely not hallucinations. I have a non stop inner monologue, and I experience hyperfantasia. (Actually, when it comes to Zazen, the inner monologue that won't turn off is the only thing that's really an issue - I struggle to stop narrating my experience! )

    I have also had Makyo experiences that Jundo talks about below. It's a totally different thing.

    Sorry to run long
    Gassho,
    SatLah
    Kelly

  42. #42
    Revisiting this thread to say this: I realized that my posture wasn't as good as I thought it was, and over the past couple of weeks I have been careful to correct it. Doing so helped IMMENSELY with nodding off during sitting practice.

    Gassho,
    SatLah
    Kelly

  43. #43
    Quote Originally Posted by KellyLM View Post
    Revisiting this thread to say this: I realized that my posture wasn't as good as I thought it was, and over the past couple of weeks I have been careful to correct it. Doing so helped IMMENSELY with nodding off during sitting practice.

    Gassho,
    SatLah
    Kelly
    ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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