Hi All,
I am new to Shikantaza. Been practicing (Tibetan) buddhist meditation techniques for around a year now. Whilst this was going farely well, I felt like there was always something 'missing'. That is why I decided to pursue Zazen, where everything is perfect as it is, 'bad' practice (thinking mind, hehe), its okay - 'good' practice, its okay. Dropping al resistance or craving, whilst not easy, is the way to expres our true nature.
In light of my own introduction, I wanted to share my own struggles and open up. Why? Because in meditation we not need to take ourselves too seriously, like I have a tendency to (you will probably experience this soon enough). Whilst following (Tibetan) meditation techniques, I was going from one technique to another, always looking for the 'one'. Switching from breathing meditation to compassion meditation and back around. It even came to the point that I was so caught up with deciding what meditation technique I 'should' do and what books I 'should' read, I became irritated just thinking about it and it was even keeping me awake at night - counterintuitive but it sounds so simple, but could you imagine?! Ordering, returning and cancelling 10's of books due to the fact that I couldn't make a choice. The supplier must of have gone mad. Not realizing it was my inability to let go of 'pursue'/'getting somewhere'/'and striving'. I noticed that I was (unconscious) habitually holding on to things. This show to what extend we humans can hold on to and how serious we can take ourselves.
I wanted to ask fellow practitioners to share some funny/insightful stories in what you encountered during your Zazen to keep everyone realize we all have a shared human condition and the importance from not taking themselves, their mind and their practice too seriously and thus experiencing life lightly, joyfully and with open-awareness. Especially in these (difficult) current situation we are all in.
Because in the end, keeping a 'Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind' is 'the most' important thing (whilst not clinging, craving or resisting).
Gassho, Warm Wishes,
Matt
Sat - (sorry for going over 3)