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    This morning was the first time I've got a second of peace to sit since Friday.

    We're now 2 days overdue for the baby, but no sign yet.

    Gassho
    Heiso
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    Last edited by Heiso; 05-20-2020 at 02:56 PM. Reason: Probably a bit of oversharing.

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    We all await with excitement comrade. I'm thankful that your children will grow up having you and your partner as parents.
    Keep us posted.
    Gassho
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  3. #203
    Quote Originally Posted by Heiso View Post
    This morning was the first time I've got a second of peace to sit since Friday.

    We're now 2 days overdue for the baby, but no sign yet.

    Gassho
    Heiso
    StLah
    Oh, keep all us uncles and aunts posted!

    I will light some incense here for smooth and painless delivery. That, and an epidural, will surely work!

    Gassho, Jundo
    STLah
    ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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    Heiso..the best for you all.

    Doshin
    St

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    Such an exciting time Heiso, metta to your and your family! I hope all is well in your area of the world

    Gassho,

    Joshua
    SatToday

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    Thank you everyone.

    Gassho
    Heiso

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    (still no baby)

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    Less is more so in that spirit I report that I'm back in hospital with breathing difficulties and now bonus two blockages in my right leg blood highways.
    It was a case of get to hospital asap after ultrasound so no time to get reading material.
    What does this mean? A shedload of opportunity for Shikantaza. Will update when I know more.
    Be well comrades, this thing we call life is a magnificent opportunity. Don't miss out.
    Gassho
    Onka
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    On Ka
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    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

  8. #208
    Quote Originally Posted by Onka View Post
    Less is more so in that spirit I report that I'm back in hospital with breathing difficulties and now bonus two blockages in my right leg blood highways.
    It was a case of get to hospital asap after ultrasound so no time to get reading material.
    What does this mean? A shedload of opportunity for Shikantaza. Will update when I know more.
    Be well comrades, this thing we call life is a magnificent opportunity. Don't miss out.
    Gassho
    Onka
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    Oh boy. Let the circulation flow! Veins blocked, but the mind is roaming free.

    Love you kid.

    Gassho, Jundo

    STLah
    ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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    Update: Still not a pity party.
    My lungs weren't happy with my legs getting all the attention this afternoon so announced the presence of their own clots in tonight's contrast CT scan.
    Quite the plot twist and very sneaky.
    Treatment has begun already because apparently clots in the lungs aren't ideal and at this stage a 2-4 day stay looks likely if all goes according to plan. Who's plan?
    Gassho
    Onka
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    Metta for you Onka

    Doshin
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    Sitting with you in mind, be well Onka.

    Gassho,

    Joshua
    SatToday/LaH

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    Non Pity Pity party less is more update...
    Saw a brilliant Doctor today who accommodated my Autistic Super Power of asking a shedload of questions without being a dismissive tool. I indeed have a shedload of clots in both lungs and there is an area of concern where either a clot has blocked an artery or is causing bleeding but the dynamic nature of blood clots in legs and lungs along with uncontrolled Asthma is posing a few challenges. I'm now injecting myself in the stomach a couple of needles a day with a blood thinner that can't dissolve the clots but can make it harder for them to grow. This, because of the dynamics at play make it easier to change doses according to regular testing.
    I'll be here probably until the middle of next week as they want to get the Asthma under control again.
    While here they will be doing tests on my heart to see if it has been damaged or is hiding any leftover clots. They will also consult my Endocrinologist to see if there's an alternative to being forced to remove a certain medication from my daily regime.
    Happy days but not necessarily less is more.
    Anyway...
    Gassho
    Onka
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    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

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    This is not a pity party.
    Embrace every moment as nothing more than what it is, a moment. This morning my embracing of a particular moment came many hours later but my goodness what a moment. It was incredible in so many ways that will never be forgotten or diminish with time.
    This is not a pity party. Never was. Never will be.
    Gassho
    Onka
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    No Gods No Masters.
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    Comrades
    This is not a pity party.
    I am here to share life being lived to the fullest. Literally moment to moment experiencing the lowest of low moments and the highest of high moments of emotions within the same experience.
    I get news that crushes me and news that delights me and both experiences are filled with many moments that can't be replicated in any other setting than what I find myself in as I type this.
    Each moment is a treasure, even the ones that will change my life forever. Positive or negative.
    I've shed tears in front of strangers, admitted being terrified to others. Had interactions with end of life patients who know they are just waiting until their body can take no more.
    Every single one of these interactions have been real, intense and grounded in each moment. End of life patients are the most present people I've ever met. Every breath is a gift and they talk about how precious each one is. My neighbour here in this place has taught me more about MY Practice than my ego had previously allowed.
    The metaphorical petals fall in the cool early morning of Autumn out of my window and everything is just as it should be. Moment after moment after moment.
    This is not a pity party. It never will be.
    I'm blessed to have found Treeleaf and the Buddha Dharma as taught by comrade Dogen.
    Be kind to yourself and look out for each other.
    Gassho from your humble servant
    Onka.
    Finding everything a little difficult today including 'sitting' for more than a minute or so at a time.

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    On Ka
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    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

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    Gassho, Shinshi

    SaT-LaH
    空道 心志 Kudo Shinshi
    I am just a priest-in-training, any resemblance between what I post and actual teachings is purely coincidental.

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    Thank you, Onka, for sharing your experiences and feeling..

    Gassho
    Washin
    sat today
    Kaido (有道) Every Way
    Washin (和信) Harmony Trust
    ----
    I am a novice priest-in-training. Anything what I say must not be considered as teaching
    and should be taken with a 'grain of salt'.

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    Update.
    My neighbour died in front of me.
    The fragility of each moment at its finest.
    May you be free of suffering my friend.
    Deep bows for teaching me about MY Practice.
    Onka Anna


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    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

  18. #218
    We will sit for your neighbor tonight.
    ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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    Kotei sat/lah today.
    古庭 KoTei / Ralf

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    Deep bows my friend, I hope that your neighbor has found their peace. Be well and at ease in your ills. I sit with you from the other side of the world

    Gassho,

    Joshua
    SatToday/LaH

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    Gassho, Shinshi

    SaT-LaH
    空道 心志 Kudo Shinshi
    I am just a priest-in-training, any resemblance between what I post and actual teachings is purely coincidental.

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    I will light incense and sit for your neighbor today, Onka.

    Gassho,
    Jakuden
    SatToday/LAH
    清 道 寂田
    SEIDO JAKUDEN
    I am a novice priest. Any resemblance my posts may have to actual teachings about the Dharma, living or dead, is purely coincidental (and just my attempt to be helpful).

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    Gassho

    Heiso
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    Update.
    My neighbour died in front of me.
    The fragility of each moment at its finest.
    Much metta to you both.


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    Feel free to message me if you wish to talk about issues around practicing with physical limitations. This is something I have been sitting with for a fair while and am happy to help with suggestions or just offer a listening ear.

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    Thank you all.
    I wrote a long post processing everything then erased it as it served its purpose and I got from my Sangha what I needed. Thank you.
    Gassho
    Onka
    ST
    On Ka
    穏 火
    aka Anna Kissed.
    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

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    Sitting for you and your neighbor tonight.

    gassho
    shonin sat/lah today
    I'm a visiting unsui from Bird Haven Zendo. Take what I say with a box of salt. Mmm!

  28. #228
    Onka .... a little birdy told me some trouble was afoot again.

    How do our paths often erupt together?

    With you in spirit, dear one.

    Gassho2, meian st lh

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    Underestimating a warrior, serves the warrior's advantage.
    迷安 - Mei An - Wandering At Rest

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    *Fist Bump*
    Solidarity sister.
    Always moving forward.
    Gassho
    Onka
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    On Ka
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    aka Anna Kissed.
    No Gods No Masters.
    Life is too serious to be taken seriously.

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