I don't know what it is. I've been sitting zazen for a long time now, and this is the first time I feel compelled to look further. It's not that I'm bored, or it's getting stale, or anything. It's more like an internal feeling to dive deeper.

Has anyone else experienced this? What did you do? Am I just being attached to the idea of this? I can attest to the fact that "just sitting" has been enough. I have had several (for lack of a better term) "eye-opening" moments. But I feel like I don't know enough history and I have no true lineage. If I'm being honest, that's why I was so happy to discover this place.