Even though I'm not present with Treeleaf, I'm always present with Treeleaf. The group here supports me in tons of ways and has been vital in not letting my questioning question me right out of practice.
I just read a really cool book called "Stumbling Towards Enlightenment" by a practitioner Geri Larkin, who practices in a Korean lineage of Zen. It's really good -- I don't agree with all of it necessarily, but it talks about this. I have found practice to be an anchor, and it's especially vital to sit when I don't want to sit.
I've been thinking about (and not to bring this up again) trusting in practice. I trust in practice by practicing. No matter the circumstances, if I'm to follow this practice, then I need to practice this practice. If I'm having a "bad" day, or I don't like how things are going, it's still a good day if I can practice. Practice is limitless.. but it's also very personal.
Gassho,
Risho
-sattoday
Edit: I absolutely love the Lex Hixon quote -- Zen practice is dirty, grimy... it's not running away from, it's staying put and facing things.. facing our anger, fear, lust, etc. so we can see it for what it is, and by doing that we feel a bond to others because we know others by knowing ourselves, and we learn how this practice then benefits others (Not two) -- sorry for the edit -- just got pumped up. lol