Sweeping..... under the carpet?
Hello everyone!
When sitting shikantaza we are to sit like Buddha, dropping body and mind and "think not-thinking".
However one thing that has been troubling me lately is that when having a trouble, like for instance someone or something troubling us at work or at school, during zazen, the mind produces thoughts about this.
It feels very good to just "open the hand of thought" and let this thoughts of trouble and problems just drift by.
Sometimes I feel that doing this sweeps the problem under the carpet so to speak and that it will come up later, maybe even worse than it is now.
I wonder when it´s best to deal with the problems and when it´s best to let them drift away. Sometimes I feel like the right thing is to just dig in to the troubles and problems and really look at them. Then it´s easier to let them go afterwards.
Any thoughts or non-thoughts about this?
Gassho
Kantai
Sweeping..... under the carpet?
When we are not sitting, I think there are times it is ok to think about our problems. Not with the intention of solving them but with intention of acknowledging them and learning to be ok with ourselves despite our issues. It is a process of accepting ourselves for who we are. Then the problems seem to work themselves out. I will say over thinking our problems and spending a lot of time doing so can cause confusion and be counter productive. Zazen is teaching me to let go of problems much easier than in the past and I do not dwell on every little issue, but there are times some issues will not be still and facing them with a little extra focus has been helpful to me. I look at as a matter of finding the middle path. Please understand I do not claim to have the correct answer. As I grow in my practice, maybe this will change but it is where I am at right now.
Sweeping..... under the carpet?
Thank you for your words Jundo. I agree with you 100%. We may be saying the same thing but with different words? Or maybe not? During Zazen itself, the thoughts come and go with out clinging. The thoughts are there for a brief time and then gone. During non-Zazen times, I do allow myself to think more in depth but in a manner that is about acknowledging mysef/issues I am having. I do it in a way that is accepting/at peace not in a way that is judging. I do it in a way that seeks understanding. I call it the opposite of Zazen because I am actually having a thought process. I called it the middle way (probably the wrong word choice as that can have other connotations) because it is in between non-thinking and thinking too much. When I recognize myself and am accepting of myself, then I am able to let go of the pain. It is a non-clinging and letting go process kind of like being on the cushion but in slow motion. It is like Zazen but it is not Zazen. It is not fighting my shyness. It is recognizing it and letting go. I don't do this for every issue, but sometimes it helps me. Maybe later when I have grown more in my practice I will not feel the need to do this. I am not suggesting this as a replacement of sitting. I sit Zazen everyday. Zazen is one of the most important things I do in my life. My head is starting to spin a little thinking about it all which is usually an indicator I have more to learn and to let it go for a while.