... In fact, this guy is --me-- more of the time than I care to admit ...

After I returned to Japan I stayed
at Kennin-ji for around two years. They had the office of tenzo there but it
was only nominal because no one actually carried out the real activity of this
training post. They did not understand it as the activity of Awake Awareness so
how could they have been able to use it to express the Way? Truly, it was very
sad. The tenzo there had never encountered a living one who could use the
office of tenzo as the functioning of Awake Awareness and so he carelessly
idled away, breaking the standards of practice.
I watched the tenzo there quite closely. He never actually worked at preparing
the morning and evening meals but just ordered about some rough servants,
lacking in intelligence and heart, leaving to them all the tasks whether
important or not. He never checked on whether they were working well or not, as
if it would be shameful to do so like peeping into the private quarters of a
neighbouring woman. He just hung about in his own rooms, reading sutras or
chanting when he wasn't lying down or chatting. Months would go by before he
would even come close to a pot, let alone buy utensils or make out a menu. He
did not understand that these activities are the exertion of Awareness. The
practice of donning the wrap robe and offering nine bows before sending out the
food was something he would never have even dreamed of; it just wouldn't have
occurred to him. As he himself did not understand the office of tenzo, when it
came time for him to teach a novice how to carry out the office what
understanding could be passed on? It was very regrettable. Although one might
have the fortune to hold this post, if one is without the mind which uncovers
the Way and fails to meet with one who has the virtue of the Way, it is like
returning empty-handed after climbing a mountain of treasure or entering an
ocean of jewels.
[You should know that even if he
never aroused the thought of enlightenment, if he had seen a single person who
set a worthy example he would have attained that way in his practice. And even
if he never saw a single person who set a worthy example, if his thought of
enlightenment had been profound, he would have hit upon that way in his
practice. But in actuality both were lacking, so there was no way for him to
benefit.]
From: Tenzo Kyokun - Instructions for the Cook by Eihei Dogen -
Translated by Yasuda Joshu and Anzan Hoshin [portion from Griffith Foulk]
