Today during my sit I had a realization. That I am actually alive. Funny really. We all know that we are living and breathing, but to actually sit in silence and truly allow myself to feel and see my body, fell and see my mind, was very beautiful. It was like meeting my self for the first time.
In a way we all want to be someone else. The enlightened version of ourselves, the wiser, richer, smarter version of ourselves. But this practice is making me realize that all those things are not going to be of any use if I can't accept myself fully right now.
Instead of trying to change myself, I am starting to slowly open up to myself, more accepting of myself. No need to change anything, just accept.
No real point to this thread just wanted to share.