For the past couple of days, I seem to be avoiding zazen. Procrastinating.
Yesterday I did managed to sit for about 30 minutes. But I had to force myself to do it.
Today, I have no desire to sit. I can almost hear my zafu calling me but I just walk by it. Too many things to do, too many things in my head, too many agitations in my mind, too many responsibilities, too many problems to deal with, too many...Argh!
I take refuge in the Sangha!