Being sick is no fun. It interferes with all our plans and dreams, keep you from our doing what wyou want to do. It hurts, and it is scary. Shakyamuni Buddha first set out on his quest because he saw people getting old and sick and (eventually we all do) dying.
Our practice in Shikanataza is to sit with "what is" ... which sometimes includes lots of being in bed moaning. I did a couple of talks on that when I was sick (not as long as you, just a week or so).
http://blog.beliefnet.com/treeleafzen/2 ... ckbed.html
http://blog.beliefnet.com/treeleafzen/2 ... uddha.html
In Buddhist terms, wishing life to be X when life is Y is Dukkha,
"suffering" (the pain of illness is not "Buddhist suffering
" ... Instead, "suffering" is wishing to be healthy when you are sick, desiring to have no pain when you have pain. ) Our practice is partly about "being at one with X when life is X, allowing Y when life is Y
". Dropping resisting, accepting, allowing.
That does not mean, by the way, that being sick may not still be scary and unpleasant ... but at the same time, there is attained a peace, even joy, with the scariness and unpleasantness. Something like that.
This week, I spoke of my friend who became friends with his cancer, and at peace with the condition ... even as he was its enemy and sometimes afraid. Both at once. He accepted the condition, allowed the condition ... yet took his chemotherapy. I spoke of people who even could find peace and hope as prisoners in German camps.
http://blog.beliefnet.com/treeleafzen/2 ... isons.html
Oh ... and before I forget ... we also taste a view by which we "Forget 'I'", and there is ultimately no "I" to be sick! 8)
But, just trust me on that right now, and anyway, it is connected to everything else mentioned above.
I hope you get well soon.