Thanks for your posts.
Thanks for raising this topic. I am very grateful to have found this "shikantaza" stuff. I would like to say how grateful I am, but then gratitude and attraction to a style of practice is itself attachment, so my response is "just sit!" I appreciate Nishijima's statement on the webcast to "just sit" - it is such a profound concept. The challenge I have accepted as of late is to sit when I do not want to - when I am tired, impatient, agitated, or feeling emotions and my first instinct is to say "I don't need this right now." Shikantaza is not just for fair weather sailing, but also for times when the waves of the mind build up to storm force. The imagery of the waves and water is appropriate here - the nature of water does not change and waves are part of the water. The waves will pass and subside, but the nature of water will never change. This sangha is an essential part of my practice as well. The ability to share and engage in dialogue with you is essential.
It's not supposed to be great, it's supposed to be boring.
If body and mind are droped off, what is booring or great?
It's easy to want to judge your ZaZen as sompthing.
Harder to just let it be zaZen.
Well i don't know if my practice is good but i do sit every day, and am learning more about practice than i ever thought possible. My thanks to Treeleaf, Jundo and all the good sangha members. Gassho Kent
Resisting impulse to make crass joke... resisting... resisting...Originally Posted by will
Well, I might put it this way ...Originally Posted by Jordan
Dropping all judgments, and thoughts of "good" or "bad" ... is very very GOOD!
I was having a bit of an off morning this morning. I didn't want to cause more karma. Smile
The intimacy thing still stands. And so does enjoying yourself.
Can't see the links or pics btw Harry (proxy server).
Hey, but I liked your post.
Ps - Yes, we can 'like things' beyond 'like' or 'dislike' ! Or even beyond 'things' or 'no things'!!
Originally Posted by kirkmc(I think) I see where both of you are coming from. But the idea that practice is supposed to be this way or that way -- or that we should just drop what it's supposed to be like and just let it be zazen -- doesn't make it that way. Sometimes I get up from sitting and I feel great. Sometimes I get up from sitting and feel like crap. Sometimes I really enjoy sitting and sometimes it drives me so mad I want to jump up from the cushion and scream. It isn't a matter of wanting it to be a certain way, or of wanting to judge it. These feelings come up whether I (we? or is that presumptuous?) want them to or not.Originally Posted by Jordan
Does that mean I'm doing it wrong?
Hi Charles,Originally Posted by Charles
Allowing things to just be the way they are, no judging, not resisting, being with the flow, allowing 'happy' days to be happy and 'sad' days to be sad, all while dropping all idea of 'happy' and 'sad', whether really enjoying or really not enjoying ... fully dropping away any and all thought of doing Zazen 'right' or doing it 'wrong' ... THIS IS DOING IT RIGHT. And when you are doing it right, it will usually feel like you are doing it right, for there is no resistance, and a great sense of balance.
Fighting things, wishing things were some other way that how they are, judging, resisting, going against the grain and the flow, wishing 'sad' days were happy or 'happy' days were happier ... filled with a sense of self bumping up against all the other 'selfs', with a mind held by thoughts of doing Zazen 'right' or doing it 'wrong' ... THIS IS DOING ZAZEN WRONG. And when you are doing it wrong, it will usually feel like you are doing it wrong, for there is resistance, and a sense of imbalance.
But as well, even at those times when Zazen feels 'wrong', when there is resistance or imbalance ... it is still 'right', still 'Zazen', still just what it is. It cannot be wrong.
Yes, that is a Koan. Is it clear? Please really really penetrate in your body and mind what I just wrote.
Yes. But knowing this, and not having that resistance, aren't the same. It isn't something I can force, you know? Sometimes the resistance is there. I keep sitting but it isn't always something I can just make go away. Sometimes the only way to 'deal' with that resistance is to just keep sitting even though it's there.Originally Posted by Jundo
You've said this before, and I've listened to it, and it's very helpful. Actually, for me, it's one of the most helpful things you've taught here. It's the reason I usually keep sitting even when it feels wrong and I don't want to keep at it. And I'm glad I do, because I think that doing this practice only when it feels good would be a mistake. Sometimes I feel like sitting when I don't want to is better for me than sitting when I do want to. Being faced with the fact that something as 'trivial' as having to sit on a cushion when I don't want to, makes me want to scream, is important.Originally Posted by Jundo
Yeah, I'm working on that. I don't think this is something that comes all at once, for me at least. Some days it's like that and some days it's not.Originally Posted by Jundo
Jundo,Originally Posted by Jundo
This is one of the most beautiful and succinct explantaions of Zen I've read. Thank you.
LOLPs - Yes, we can 'like things' beyond 'like' or 'dislike' ! Or even beyond 'things' or 'no things'!!
Ok. Let's go through it.
excerpt from original post: "I hope everyone is having a good practice."
Now someone might point out (there is no good or bad). If saying this for the sake of difference or round wisdom, ok "I guess". But if from the stand point of "if one drops bodymind there is no good or bad is like saying dropping bodymind is beyond good and bad, and this in effect is a standpoint in the midst of good, bad and preference."
If one says the sky is purple, well, we see with our eyes that it is indeed blue, but they like to say it is purple. Fine.
If one says that Zazen is either Boring, good, bad, emptiness, up, down this is still in the midsts of preference. As is the view point: "One should not be attached to good or bad."
As is the standpoint that all standpoints are are in the midst of standpoints.
So I guess we can confer that Zazen is in the midst of and beyond all standpoints and points of views. If one should happen to feel happy, and another thinks that happy is wrong, both are are right.
Whether one tries to be happy or just let the happy be happy is the point I think. Naturally when bodymind drops there is a natural joy that arises, but to think that this is a natural joy that arises from dropping Bodymind misses the point. The point is to let there be what there is at that moment. In "the phrase" dropping bodymind or sadness, there is what is.
If it is a gratefulness, or a joy, or a whatever, we let it be. So many standpoints and points of view are one standpoint and point of view beyond objectification, and in the midst there of.
That is why we can take what I just wrote and use it as toilet paper.
This makes practice seem a little useless doesn't it. That's the point.
"Zazen is good for nothing."
Ah, welcome to the club! That's why they call it "Practice!" Even after all these years, I still face this ... I think lots of us do lots of the time even after years and years of sitting.Originally Posted by Charles
All I can say perhaps is that, well, the best way not to have "resistance" is probably not by resisting the resistance. Otherwise, it is something like trying to get yourself dry by washing away the wetness. Something like that.
Yes. When it feels "right", it is right. You know at that moment it is right (as the Buddha used to like to say, "good in the beginning, good in the middle, good in the end"). And even when it is feeling "wrong", it is still right.Originally Posted by Charles
Hopefully, with Practice, it will start to feel "right" more of the time than it feels "wrong".
What we do around here is so "sane", that it will drive you absolutely nuts to think about it.
Will, your standpoint on standpoints (and the lack thereof) is an interesting standpoint ... and lack thereof.Originally Posted by will
I like it! I really do! All while having no opinion on the matter.
LOL. Your killin me over here.Will, your standpoint on standpoints (and the lack thereof) is an interesting standpoint ... and lack thereof.
Note: I just got back from shopping. That always leaves me a little flustered.
But you know, this Zazen is great stuff.
Not disagreeing, just adding spice to the stew:Originally Posted by will
"Sawaki Roshi used to boom, 'Nothing comes from it at all!' It was his way to touch and draw out the spirit of sacredness regarding Zazen in the people to whom he was speaking. On the other hand, when I myself am asked 'What will come to me from doing Zazen,' I like to answer . . . 'Everything can come of it!'" A Heart to Heart Chat With Old Master Gudo, p. 145.