Good morning, everyone. I am very glad I took the leap and posted this topic here. Thank you all for posting and helping.
I was speaking with my dear friend and our sangha member awhile ago, Shingen, about zazen. He brought up this "sitting quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself." Even though he wasn't directly speaking about parenting, we do know that "all of life is zazen" so it does apply to this topic. As parents, we have to have a certain amount of control, or let's face it, all hell breaks loose. Kids get hungry, we need to always make sure there is food in the house, kids need clean clothes, and help with schoolwork, and the list, as we all know, goes on and on. These things don't get accomplished by sitting and thinking the grass is going to grow all by itself. And, yet, after reading the comments here, and thinking about the quote Shingen brought up, there can be a certain level of stillness, of letting go and just embracing life as it is, even among the endless parenting tasks.
Kelly, you brought up wanting to have a clean sparkly house. I've strived for that for years. I grew up on a huge farm where the yard, house and barn were perfectly immaculate. I'm learning to let this perfectionism go. I will never live in a dirty, unorganized house, but there are dust bunnies in my house right now; the place is far from perfection and I don't like it, but it's part of my daily practice. I remind myself that this is my "grass hut, where there is nothing of value" =)
I will just end this with a lesson from Dogen, one that hits close to my heart today as I found out a (very old) lady that I knew passed away yesterday.....
Let me respectfully remind you,
Life and death are of supreme importance
Time swiftly passes by and opportunity is lost.
Each of us should strive to awaken...awaken, take heed.
This night your days are diminished by one.
Do not squander your life. --Dogen
Thank you, Dogen, and everyone, for your compassion and wisdom.
Gassho,
Joyo
sat yesterday and will sit again today