Let me begin with a small intro about my practice. I am 22 years old, I had been practising quite regularly for some 6 months, I don't have a teacher. After a while, I had too many distractions, I have started with a new job. I don't practice at all. I have been trying to sit, but it has become very infrequent. I do try to practice with daily life situations, but I am very confused on how to resume my sitting practice. I feel something is amiss with my life. I have a job, good friends but still something isn't right. I feel guilty at times for not sitting. I get easily distracted. If I were to choose between sitting and watching a tv show i would watch the show. It wasn't like this earlier. I am wondering what changed.
I have experienced some of the fruits of practice, though i didn't go looking for them, am afraid I would slip back into the old ways of struggling against life.
Any suggestions or ideas are welcome.
Thank You .