I wonder why some are more attracted to things than others. My mother told me that one of the first sentences I uttered was "I want!". I like to think that as an infant, I was born with a clean slate, so "I want must" must of come from her.

Thinking back a couple of generations, the "I want" may have come from the Holocaust. The maternal side of the family was from Berlin and most of them died. Some escaped leaving their wealth behind. Because of this, my mother felt entitled to material things that she might of had had and projected "I want" on me.

May I be freed from the burden of "I want" through Zazen. No need to go anywhere, its all right here.