Well, this is long post and I had to sit down for this one (sometimes I stand up at the computer).
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But where does evaluation fit in?
It does fit in.
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I'm not quite sure if you are talking about dropping the discriminating mind, or advising against rushing to judge others, i.e. being judgemental
Yes. Most of this has to do with my practice, but I think that someone can learn from it, and use it too. What I am saying here is that there is really nothing to worry about. People are people and they will continue to be until they see fit to gain or "not gain" whatever it is that they "gain" from their practice. We are dealing with adults here, not people who haven't lived a life already. You can't force anyone to be any way. It won't happen, and that is just more ego wanting to have what it wants. It is being ok with being ok.
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are you in danger of making a judgemnt on 'everything'?
Yes. Judgment or "self image" is a big part of practice. There is always the moment where we can say "Don't do that!", or we can watch as it's done. Judgement is Judgement. It comes and goes like everything else. Maybe some people are not easy to judge, and this does not relate to them. It is for those who are critical about one's self or other, and those who "worry too much".
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I shouldn't be, but I frequently am. I get bugged by things that people thought about me 30 years ago. I get bugged remembering what people who are now dead thought about me. It's nuts, but welcome to my world.
Welcome to practice :) It is about dropping all that stuff. It doesn't matter. Does it matter whether you step out the door in the morning? Does it matter whether you can crouch or drink a glass of water? Does it matter? Thinking mind might say "YES!" Bodymind might says "DO!"
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not sure about this bit - is it referring to the internal voice that says something is wrong (as opposed to listening to someone else saying things are wrong)?
Yes. There is no "internal voice" really, it's just a lot of thought, and failure to see the moment as it is. This has to do with body etc. balance etc.. This "internal voice" is just self image judging it's actions and etc.. Remember "there is no you". This is very true. But it's not quite what it would seem. It is just the moment or it is just action (non deliberate). It is doing something to do it.
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not sure about this either. Are you saying that things don't matter or that they do matter?
I'm saying "Don't worry!" No matter how much you want to get rid of something, it will continue being that thing until you see through it and see it more clearly.
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it's not always such a terrible struggle is it?
That's the point. Smile more. And if you don't feel like smiling, then don't. Don't force it, that just makes it complicated.
Gassho