Pema rocks! I struggle with this sometimes. I will just churn the story in my mind endlessly until either it or I wear out over time When I am
And as I mentioned, I anticipate that there will be no Buddha Statue, I am feeling like going for a t-shirt and Rakusu, and I will even try to get this
Yes, just keep with it. You'll see, practice evolves, and slowly you will begin to feel what it means to "just sit" - and you will understand
I'll be there.
It's good to read about all your experiences, they're non-definitions rather than definitions, but one gets the feel of what you mean. Meta-attention