Yes, just keep with it. You'll see, practice evolves, and slowly you will begin to feel what it means to "just sit" - and you will understand
I'll be there.
It's good to read about all your experiences, they're non-definitions rather than definitions, but one gets the feel of what you mean. Meta-attention
I'll be there. Will be interesting to sit Zazenkai with this new seiza bench. Might bring a cane with just in case.